somehow this lady whom I've never met, most likely will never meet, and will never know that I know that she exists, put my thoughts exactly into her own words:
we definitely haven't gotten to her last paragraph yet. just saying, we're undecided. probably will be for a while, especially while my stitches still remind me of that day 2.5 weeks ago. God blesses us with a forgetful memory of that beautiful, aweful day commerated as 'birthdays'.